Staying at home

Well, I am officially a Stay At Home Mom now. My last day of work was last Friday (though I was still home and using up vacation time after my maternity leave ran out), and on Tuesday I went to the office to pack up my belongings. I am pretty excited about staying home with my little one; it's something I've always wanted to do once I started having kids. I love that I get to see her smiles throughout the day and that I'm the one around to calm her down when she's upset. It's tiring work for sure, but it's so worth it.

Now I just have to find some contract/freelance work to do from home so I can help make ends meet...

On being a mommy

It's amazing how much being a mommy can change the way you think about things. We have tickets to a local David Crowder concert for Saturday and I'm dreading it about as much as I'm looking forward to it. It means being away from my precious baby for about three hours and missing one of her feedings, which makes me sad. Yes, we had to give her bottles of pumped milk early on because of some feeding difficulties, but she hasn't had a bottle in six or seven weeks now and the idea of giving her one again is making me cringe even though I know it's fine to do now. Somehow I feel like I'm abandoning my role as primary caregiver and primary feeder or something. I feel like I'm abandoning her, which is just silly. She will be with her grandma and she will have a grand time, I know. And just maybe that's what I fear -- that she will have a grand time without me and won't need me at all...

A place of my own

Hello, and welcome to my open fields. Though I've blogged before, my posts have trickled down to an update here and another there a few months later. But I want to be more consistent. I want to write more. I want to share my soul and let my mind wander where it will. So I've created a new blog where I can do just that -- a place of my own, where I can talk about motherhood and writing, faith and observations, love and life in general. Please feel free to frequent these fields and share your thoughts as well.